Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Baby Anticipation

I have been trying to come up with some ways that I can convince my doctor into inducing me. LoL I have concluded that no matter what I come up with it won't work. Hehehehe, so I just have to wait like every other mother to be out there does. Oh well. You can't have your cake and eat it, too, right? But I can dream.... hehehe

I'm excited for Baby Ezra to be born. I can't wait! I'm so curious to see what he will look like and what his personality will be like. I'm also very excited and curious to see how Benny will react to a new baby brother.

We took a tour of the hospital this last week and it made everything seem really "real" to me, if that makes sense. I was flooded with a bunch of memories from my first labor and delivery experience. I was reminded of the pains and the needles and the shakes, but also of the excitement!! We also took a birthing refresher course that night after the tour. It was a good class. We mostly reviewed breathing and comfort techniques. It was nice to get back massages from Ben without asking him. Hehehehe, the instructor told him what to do and I just sat there almost drooling because it relieved so much tension. :-)

Baby arrival seems so close now! I can feel it, almost. The day will get here before I know it and that's both a great thing and a scary thing. What will it be like to have two children? How will I share my heart? I know I will...I just wonder how it will work and what it will feel like. I'll have two little boys to care for and worry about and to love and hold. **sigh** Motherhood is just a wonderful gift-I'm so blessed and grateful to be able to experience it.

Can you believe that my super organized self still has not finished packing a hospital bag? I'm ashamed. lol I'm almost done, though. All I need is a going home outfit for myself and a change of clothes for Ben. Other than that its ready. I should finish that today. That way I can stop complaining about it to myself. :-)

Its getting closer and closer! I can't wait!!

1 comment:

Ed said...

Some of the concerns you express about "sharing your heart" bring back a lot of memories. I can certainly remember worrying about how I could love another child as much as I love Caleb.

Unfortunately, since I read this post yesterday, I haven't been able to find words to express what it's like to have the second one arrive, in terms of how your love becomes "shared." All I can really say is that it works out, and before long, you begin to recognize personality traits, looks, etc. that are different about the second child. You'll probably begin to love special little things about Ezra that Benny doesn't necessarily posess, and vice versa, you'll love things about Benny even more than you hadn't noticed or appreciated.

Try and think of it from this perspective. When Caleb was our only child, you really loved him right? But when we proceeded to have Sam and Heidi, did that really diminish the love you have for Caleb? Probably changed it somehow, but not diminished.

Anyway, I think I've gone on way longer about this than my original intent. The bottom line: it all works out. I share your excitement of the arrival of your newest adventure. :-)